2am

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August 11, 2012 by travelingsole

What do you do when it’s 2am and you have had 3 cups of coffee and so many things are going through your head. This song (Breathe) has always hit something in my soul. The last three verses/paragraphs… “If I get it all down on paper…. just breathe.”

When a person barely has a social life during the week, like me, then for a few months straight you have every weekend packed to the brim with fun people and memory making events… How can one brain handle the overload? It’s just too much. There’s spinning thoughts and threads of thought that just don’t connect. (spaghetti brain). You I can’t think straight… winding down takes a lot of effort but your my brain is physically incapable of the effort it requires at 2 am. It’s impossible. Too wired to sleep but too tired to wind down.

Breathe (2 AM)” by Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me ’cause I’m still awake,

“Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,

I don’t love him. Winter just wasn’t my season”
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You’re all here for the very same reason

‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
“Just a day” he said down to the flask in his fist,
“Ain’t been sober, since maybe October of last year.”
Here in town you can tell he’s been down for a while,
But, my God, it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I’ll just sing about it.

Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There’s a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout ’cause you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
And these mistakes you’ve made, you’ll just make them again
If you’d only try turning around.

2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to

But you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

Then there’s this song that says it all…
Slow Me Down  by Emmy Rossum
Just slow me, slow me down
Slow me down, slow me down
Rushing and racing, and running in circles
Moving so fast, I’m forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning, getting nowhere
My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world, I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I’ve got it together, I’m falling apart
Save me, somebody take my hand and lead me
Slow me down, don’t let love pass me by
Just show me how ’cause I’m ready to fall
Slow me down, don’t let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down
Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep, I’m getting nowhere
All that I’ve missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn’t paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running, I’m falling apart
Tell me, oh, won’t you take my hand and lead me?
Slow me down, don’t let love pass me by
Just show me how ’cause I’m ready to fall
Slow me down, don’t let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down
Just show me, I need you to slow me down
Slow me down, slow me down
The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please slow me down

Copied from MetroLyrics.com

My friend Cindy has told me so many times…. “Slow down, process, journal, drink some coffee, read your Bible, pray, process, just stop and be Quiet…” She is so right. I have not learned that lesson yet. Do you know what it’s like when life just flies at you so fast that, as you dodge one direction something hits you from the other side? It’s like running on a treadmill into a shower of debris. You just don’t have the time to breathe! Time is worth so much. So incredibly much. If I let life fly by and survive minute to minute, I’ll lose my focus on the bigger picture. Purpose. What is life worth without purpose?
It’s time to turn off the music… close my eyes… breathe in… breathe out… relax… sleep.
Inhale… exhale… breathe
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One thought on “2am

  1. Lydia Kaufman says:

    Life without purpose is worth nothing. Ask yourself “Why did God create me?” I knew the right theological answer…to bring glory to Him, but that sounded like it would cost me my significance. In a sense it does, but I have found pursuing God’s kingdom to be rewarding. As single women, we don’t typically have children…but I cry “Lord give me spiritual children!” Your friend is right! Seek answers from the Bible, mentors, your local body of believers, journaling. God used all of these to bring me answers. Keep seeking, you will find. frm Lydia

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